Surviving the Domestic Jungle

I wrote a post a few days ago about how I bought the same pair of pants three times, well now I am worried about buying a pair of high heels. I have been thinking about those stupid shoes for days! They probably aren’t even there anymore! The reason I am unsure is they are red and I have mentioned on here a million times how I am a vanilla kind of girl. I don’t wear red panties and bras and I don’t wear red heels….I’m just not THAT kind of girl. I would never buy red lingerie either…Anyway, they aren’t fire engine red so that’s why I am struggling. They are more of a burgundy red and I realize posts like this pretty much make me a certifiable lunatic but these are big decisions to me because A) I hate to spend money and B) I hate to spend money and then not use what I spent the money on. I have a pair of shoes in my closet that I have had for at least 4 months and have never worn and it irks me. Wasteful. Anyway, being I am not a red kind of girl, I think it would be good for me to buy them for that reason alone. It is way outside my comfort level and I am trying to step outside of my beige colored box. It causes anxiety to someone like me. I am a conservative girl. I’m not a lady in the street and a freak in the bedroom, I am a freak in the streets and a lady in the bedroom. I am open about my freakness and embrace it wholeheartedly!