Surviving the Domestic Jungle

I have spent a lot of my life preaching and believing in the importance of family. The funny thing is, I don’t know who in my family sees things the way I do. Believe it or not, no one in my immediate family reads my blog. Yes, its a blog and not some epic novel or encyclopedia but it is something that’s important to me. When I say no one, I mean no one. My wonderful, beautiful Auntie in another country does! I think one of my sister in laws does every now and again and other than that, no one I live in the same city as and have Christmas dinners with reads it. Even my own husband rarely does. I cant explain how much that hurts my feelings. For a girl who puts family first, I am feeling pretty pissed off. I have gone to graduations and birthday parties and taken an active interest in each and everyone of my siblings. I took my sister on two trips that I footed the bill for! Even my own mom (who I love very much!!) does not even read my blog. My kids color a piece of scrap paper and it is damn near framed on the wall! I couldn’t imagine not being my kids biggest support. I know that a lot of the time I write a bunch of nonsense on here and again, not an epic novel, but it is an expression of me. It is me! Its so disappointing and really saddens me that my family in another country is more interested and supportive than my family 20 minutes away. I dont know. Im just sad….