Surviving the Domestic Jungle

My age for “you better have your life together” is 30 and considering I am a mere 2 weeks away from that age, I am not exactly sure if I have my life together. In some ways I have a fantastic life! I have beautiful kids, I am healthy and married and mostly happy (there are days when I am miserable but those come and thankfully go). I never in my wildest dreams thought I would grow up to be a stay at home mom. I wanted to have so many different careers ranging from Obstetrician to Architect and all of which required math and science which my brain just does not do. I failed miserably at every math and science class I have ever taken. I hate them both…passionately. It has for sure hindered my career choices! If only I could get paid for being a mom! I would be a millionaire! I am definitely not living where I want to be and I definitely don’t have the relationships I want to have as of yet. I want to get to know certain people better and really focus on having friends that are like family. I have a few of those but unfortunately, they are in another country or another state. Everyone that means something to me (for the most part) is in another country. Annoying. I have friends for over 20 years that I never see but yet pick up that phone and chit chat like it was last week at lunch that we saw each other. That’s a true friend. 100 years could go by and nothing has changed the moment you talk again. I don’t know what I want for my 30th….trust me, I have thought about everything from a trip to a piece of jewelery but honestly I dont know what I want. All I do know is I am glad to leave my 20′s behind as they were a major trial and error and lots of errors were made but onward and forward!!