Surviving the Domestic Jungle

Im on a bit of a self discovery journey these days. I think it is good to stop and review yourself, where you have been and where you are going. Getting to really know yourself can be a challenge. I think some men have these moments and buy a corvette and some women do and get a younger boyfriend or a facelift but ultimately we need to look no where but inward. All the answers we need are inside us. A corvette and younger boyfriend are just another way we try to not actually deal with our ‘stuff’. I am enjoying getting to know who I actually am. It is a fun, interesting yet occasionally scary experience. As I have mentioned, I am a believer of past lives so I am incorporating the ones I know about in my self discovery. You have to know where you have been to understand where you are and where you are going in my opinion. I like knowing about who I was and how it is made me who I am. I recently found out the link to my intense fear of water and since finding it out, I actually feel a weight has been lifted. I am still nervous of water but it was getting to the point where I found it scary to be on a beach or even near an ocean. I was about to move to the Rockies just to escape the ocean!! Not really but it was becoming a debilitating fear. I now know why I fear it and slowly I am letting go of the fear. I would tell the story but it is a private thing that I am not willing to be judged for believing in. Some people think past lives are crap and while you are entitled to your beliefs, I am too. I do not try to convert anyone to my belief system and I ask for the respect that no one try and convert me. I think that self discovery is just about yourself and there for a private thing although you can be open about it. I am really only open about it with my mom because she raised me so our beliefs are similar, but at the same time, it is a safe place for me to open up because my mom does not judge me at all. She will never tell me I am crazy or wrong. Everybody needs someone like that in their lives. I’m lucky my mom is like that and I try to be that for my kids. I learned a long time ago to stop sharing myself with people who only judge me. They are not my friends and not to be trusted with my deepest emotions. I do not judge my real friends and I encourage all my readers to do the same. Its funny because I had total writers block this morning yet somehow pulled through and have a lot to say! Ill leave it at what I have already said but just know as I go along on my journey, my posts might get pretty colorful!