Surviving the Domestic Jungle

I haven’t really had much to say recently. With all the holiday fun going on it has been difficult to find things to write about other than Christmas cookies and the horrible stress of Christmas shopping! I went to JC Penney today to redeem a gift card we had and wow were there a lot of people! Just people everywhere!! I had to keep an eye on my 2 year old who is extremely independent and does not listen to her mommy!!! She wants to roam free like she is at home and that just doesn’t work and makes for an extremely stressful shopping experience for me. I am actually getting nervous about having a new baby and a toddler in the midst of the terrible twos. Actually I am scared to the core!! I am not sure how I am going to handle it and I think about it everyday. My husband and I have decided that our daughter will be very jealous of the baby and so I am going to have to find some way too ease that transition too. When I conceived, she was only 1 1/2 and was just perfect but within the last few months, her independence and stubbornness has come out in full force. She is just on time with her behavior (terrible twos) but now I am scared. I know I can do it but I’m sure there will be a day or two where I am going to feel overwhelmed. I figure with three kids keeping me literally on my toes, I will lose all my baby weight so that is a plus! So far, only 20 pounds have been gained and I do not plan on putting on much more!! Life is so much better when you don’t gain a ton of weight so that when you give birth, your not exhausted, sore and FAT! I can deal with being tired and being sore and being overwhelmed but fat, no way! Being this is my last baby, I am very anxious to once and for all fix up my body and get to a comfortable place with it. I would like to workout but that may be a dream depending on my day to day schedule. I want to give away every piece of maternity and anything that even remotely has a empire waist and could be mistaken for maternity!! I’m done with pregnancy! It is sooooo scary and takes so long. It is special and amazing but 3 times of intense fear is enough for me! Bring on the size two jeans and the diet coke!!