Surviving the Domestic Jungle

I have a feeling these last few weeks of my pregnancy are going to fly by and before I know it I will be a haggard mess!! One topic my husband and I have had to deal with is the topic of circumcision, which for me, has been difficult. I know I want my son to be circumcised but the mother in me does not want to hurt him!!! It is stressing me out and yesterday when I called around looking for a pediatrician, I found out very, very few actually do it. The one I did find that did it was very blunt about how much it will hurt him and that very few people are doing it nowadays. I thought that was a little harsh to say that I will be hurting my son but the truth is the truth. The only good thing is we can go with him while he has it done so I am FORCING my husband to go with him just because I want him to see what his son has to go through!! I will of course go too but I will be crying like a baby so I need my husband to be strong! I know the baby wont remember the pain but it still is awful to think of cutting his little penis! Its about a 1000000 times worse than having to give my babies their shots. I cry then too!! I know I am hurting them but I know in the long run, I am protecting them from terrible diseases. I cant say I am doing circumcision for much more than aesthetics. I have no clue how to clean under the foreskin but I’m sure I could learn. For my husband it is purely for aesthetics which I understand. Women make fun of uncircumcised penis’ (some, not all) but I guess for as many as there are that do, there are just as many that don’t care. I just want him to not feel weird or disfigured or be laughed at in the locker room. In my opinion, men carry a lot of their confidence from the penis and I just want him to feel confident! Ugh I am obviously thinking too much into this. I’m already stressed about his first girlfriend and whether I will like her or not!!! Having a boy is so different from having a girl!!