Surviving the Domestic Jungle

Last night, at the end of my already busy day, I fell. Now, it wouldn’t be so bad if I wasn’t almost 7 months pregnant. It is pretty much one of the worst things that can happen while you are pregnant. You want to talk about scary!!! I was coming down the stairs holding my daughter Hailey and couldn’t see the pile of shoes at the bottom. Basically, as I stepped down, my foot rolled over a shoe and slowly I fell on my knee, placed Hailey down then fell on my other knee and then my hip. It was weird how it was almost a controlled fall but it wasn’t like I fell like a ton of bricks. I want to say it was almost graceful. It didn’t feel graceful at all when my foot and knees were throbbing but after I realized what happened, pure fear took over. Everyone knows falling while pregnant can be dangerous but thankfully my little guy was a rocking and rolling in my tummy and my knees broke my fall. It was still so scary and took me a good hour to calm down and stop being over reactive. I have never fallen in any of my pregnancies so I was feeling a little insecure about the whole thing. Of course I still had the Girl Scout meeting to go to which got my mind off things (thankfully) but man is pregnancy not fear filled? I’m thankful this is my last one so I never have to be afraid of miscarriage or falling or any of the other things that accompany the experience. There are many good, wonderful things about being pregnant but boy can the fear consume you if you allow it. I love feeling his kicks but when I don’t feel he is kicking enough….Worry! I know babies need to sleep and not kick all day everyday but  would prefer it that way! I cant wait til he’s born and the fear gets even worse! At least now he is protected in his little world by his clumsy, anxiety ridden mother because when he is born I cant protect him from bullies or girls that break his heart or disappointment. I guess when I put it that way, the fear that comes with pregnancy is like a dream by comparison to life!!!