Surviving the Domestic Jungle

I have no patience. It is a serious character flaw to be honest. Waiting is damn near torture for me. I love instant results and instant gratification! They say the good things are worth waiting for and I do believe that to be true. Being pregnant you wait 9 months and I think that is necessary and I don’t mind the wait. Its seems like forever when you are pregnant but when you are done it really didn’t seem like it was that long. I think I just get so excited about things like for example taking trips and booking them a year in advance. Oh that is painful! One whole year of waiting is just an awful thought. I like the more spontaneous things like “hey you want to go _______ this weekend?” A few days is manageable for me. Although being a mom is not really conducive to spontaneity. As a mom you need to plan a year ahead!! Still, I don’t like it. I know that waiting and being patient is a necessary part of being an adult but it is hard for me. I am a sufferer of no patience. I guess I should clarify that it is only patience with certain things. With my kids I am very patient when they are acting crazy! When there are good, exciting things that I am wanting, its hard. I have one of those minds that never stops going. I analyze things to death and maybe that’s why its hard for me. My mind just cant be like “have patience and soon enough you will know”. My mind is like “Well what happens if this should happen and what about the days leading up to this or that and why did it happen this way and not that way and what if I tried things that way” and I hope you get the idea. Its occasionally a pain in the butt to have a mind like mine but at the same time I like the way my mind works because I am generally able to rationalize most things and put things into perspective and I also am very organized! I guess I am a type A personality. No, not I guess, I am a type A personality! Both my kids seem to have little type A tendencies too which I am not sure if that is genetic or just from having a mom that is. There are so many things I am waiting on hearing back on and all are good things ultimately and the overload is a lot for my mind. One thing, I can handle. Two things, ok but hard and three or more is borderline torture! Soon enough I’ll know right?!!