Surviving the Domestic Jungle

I’m officially the biggest baby on the planet. My husband went to a movie this evening and when I am alone with the kids I am on high paranoia alert. Little side note: I do not go to movies. The last movie I saw in a theater was ‘The Others’ which was a very long long time ago. That was when movies were somewhat reasonably priced! I can’t stand being scrunched in with people I don’t know in a dark, cold room where I generally am trying to strategically figure out what the best part of the movie is for me to go pee. Either way, it is not a fun time for me. Of course, I marry a man who LOVES to go to the movies so basically we have an understanding. He goes and I don’t and we don’t give each other any flack for it. It works. So anyway, he went tonight and the moment he told me he was I got anxiety. I have this weird fear of being alone with the kids and feeling like I’m so vulnerable and all the bad things that could possibly happen will happen all in the few hours he is away. Maybe it’s because I am a woman and as a woman it is pounded into your head that you can never be to careful you can never take unnecessary risks! I guess between that and TV I have a huge fear of being alone at night. I want a dog but just like I don’t like to go to movies, my husband doesn’t like big dogs. I want a German Shepherd and he is completely against it. Its a wonder we got married with how much we have in common!! One day I will get my dog! I have a plan and even if I have to go see a movie for one I will. I know a dog isn’t the end all be all of safety but it sure helps me feel more comfortable. To be honest breaking in to someones house sounds pretty scary to me. You never know what the homeowner might have in their house as far as protection goes. Between dogs and guns, I dont know if it is worth it. If you were to break in to two people I know off the top of my head homes, you would be dead or seriously injured. They are hunters so you can imagine their selection of guns! I guess I am of the thinking that the world is how you chose to view it (to some degree). If you (or me when I am alone) sit around thinking about all the scary things that happen out there then you will view the world as a crime filled place of fear. If you see the world as a place filled with mostly good people with families then it becomes a much safer place. I guess the thing you can hope for the most is that our neighbors are watching out for us. Although I have heard that most crimes are committed by someone you know so who the heck knows but I am hoping to one day out grow my fear with a new fluffy puppy!!